An Open Letter to Lana

To My Lovely Daughter Lana,

First and foremost, we are so lucky to have you in our lives. Hailey, your mom, and I, have been truly blessed with your presence. It certainly has been tough, but we’re genuinely thankful to God for every moment we’re able to spend with you. Time just seems to fly by when we are by your side. You have been through so much in your short time here, and you have proven time and time again that you’re one tough girl. I feel foolish at times for even thinking about complaining about lacking sleep, because in reality, you’re the one doing the battling. As the tiniest girl in the NICU, you certainly have the largest heart.

You’ve barely been alive in this earth and you have taught me so much already. You remind me of how important it is to be thankful for all the little things in life. I’ve become so spoiled that I have forgotten how special it is to be able to hold your loved ones, and to be able to whisper in their ear how much you care about them. You have changed my perspective, and have reminded me of what is truly important. Furthermore, you have helped me find God again. I was not cognizant of how lost I was until I was found. Because of you, I have probably prayed more in the past 2 months, more than I have in the past 20 years. I still have a lot to learn to become a good dad, but you taught me so much already. I’ve become more appreciative of all the small gifts in life.

To be perfectly honest, I don’t know how much time we will have together. But God-willing, I would like be able to use what I’ve learned to be a better dad for YOU. I will carry the lessons from this circumstance to become a better dad, husband, son, brother, and friend no matter what happens. But if I can one day share with you and Hailey the lessons you’ve been able to show me, then I will feel that I have done my job as a father.

Love, 
Daddy